We all reach a stage in our lives where we think- I wish I could go back in time and correct the mistakes that I made or get a chance to do things differently. I probably go through it every second day. Nevertheless, I know that is never possible. If I did things differently I would never be writing this post; hence this letter to my younger self.
To begin with, I am sorry for being negative and critical about everything in life. I know how much potential you possess and I fear if I don’t push myself I will fall short. I am sorry for the times I have inflicted self-doubt and made you feel like a loser. Don’t listen or adhere to any of it. You’re worth more than any of these things.
You have a good heart and clear conscience. Do not pretend to be someone who you are not; stop running behind people and pleasing them. Not all of them are meant to stay. Some people only come in your life to teach you valuable lessons. Observe and learn as much as you can. Stop wasting time on useless feelings and people. No matter what people say, you’re funny; you’re not lazy and most of all you do not fear hard work. You’re focused, disciplined and have immense determination to achieve whatever it is that you put your mind into. Do not listen to anyone apart from your own self.
I know you feel lost at the moment, but that’s okay; keep experimenting; you will surely find that one thing that touches your soul which gives new meaning and dimension to your life. Respect yourself first before expecting out of others. Love yourself just as you love others. You are going to fall many times- pick yourself up, dust off the dirt and begin again; don’t fret about your wounds they are the signs of the journeys that you’ve travelled and the lessons that you’ve learned.
I am not writing to you to sway your decisions, it could lead to grave consequences in the future. I couldn’t exist writing this without you and that’s a risk I am not willing to take. To be very honest, I am still not where I see myself to be but I now have the confidence in me and I believe that I will surely achieve that what I seek. You are not a failure, every bump on the road will make you who you are supposed to be.
You have offered a lot of yourself to others. You’ve crossed oceans and mountains for your loved ones. You’ve given all your blood, sweat and tears to make your parents proud. You’ve done all that is possible, stop for a while, take a deep breath, smile, pat yourself on the back. You’ve come a long long way. No matter how hard you try PERFECTION is something you can never achieve. Don’t stop doing things just because you are running behind something that doesn’t exist; hence please do not stop reading and start WRITING.
You do not to have to fight every thought and feeling that arises, let it come and go by. I know there will be times when you don’t believe in anything. Faith has never been our strong suit, has it? Time heals it all. Put it out in the universe, give things a chance and see magic happen. Be strong; you’ll be better; you’ll find your path. Moments of fear and vulnerability will shape you into the person that you want to be. No amount of mistakes can define you.
Let go of all the fears and allow yourself to be happy. Don’t just live your life experience it. It isn’t an easy path; however, one day, when I will look back I’ll be proud of myself. It’ll all be worth it at the end.
Have Faith. Believe in yourself. You’ll make it!
Love and Gratitude,